What had to happen, happened,
For administrative paperwork, here I am back in France for a period of 3 to 4 weeks awaiting an important document before leaving again…
It is a pleasure to see my family again, especially since France is very calm compared to Cairo; it must be said that this is pleasant. Unfortunately, the cruel lack of Islam around you is felt once you set foot on the territory.
It is true that we are not at home (let’s be clear), but given the large Muslim community present, it should not be like this.
Without exaggeration, a malaise is felt due to the disconnect with the people here! It’s hard to explain but I feel alone, a bit like "the resident extremist" when I say that such and such a thing is forbidden or to be avoided. It’s discouraging, let’s not lie.
I do not hide my desire to leave as soon as possible!
Not to mention that I can no longer take Arabic lessons, which was my daily routine in Egypt and literally what dictated my day; I am a bit afraid as if I were neglecting knowledge and no longer "under Allah’s protection" (this is only a feeling)… After all, it is only a rough patch, help is near in sha Allah.
The baarakah in my time has almost vanished; one must struggle to maintain one’s connection with the Quran, knowing that the small pleasure of readings after prayers is broken since they close the mosques immediately after them. Let alone the fact that between two mosques (2 km apart) the prayer times differ.
We are tested from all sides in this country; one cannot even walk with head held high, the Friday khutbahs are sometimes disastrous, family does not help in most households, and the media spends their days harming us.
To summarize, Egypt made me take a lot of perspective, and I realize the seriousness of the situation we are all in, myself first.
It is imperative to learn our religion and I urge you to do so!
Whoever has the possibility, let him make his hijra as soon as possible to preserve his dîn, for we live in a world where those in need sell their religion first.
"[..] And be patient; indeed, the best outcome is for the righteous."
"[..]فاصبر إنَّ العقبة للمتّقين"
Surah Hud. V49